I'm back on the dating circuit. I'm dating online. This time, though, isn't as entertaining. I'm getting as many emails and winks as before (which is nice because I'm keeping it real this time instead of being who I think men want me to be), but I'm staying true to my vision, so won't be dating as much (less leniency now). I'm also not dating as old as I was. Ten year age gap max. And I'm also dating men much younger than myself, upon my sister's urging. (Although she didn't have to urge too hard- Young (yes, waaay legal) men are always so sweet, gorgeous and eager!). They're very charming. Anyway, I digress.
I think that last time I just wanted to find a boyfriend, so I wasn't as particular about who I dated and I bent a lot of rules and made concessions that I knew would bite me in the ass later. And it did. And today I realized, that was the problem... I shouldn't look for just a boyfriend, I should look for a husband! This is a nearly impossible task because I know I don't want kids. And although guys are always joking about a woman's biological clock, I've noticed that a lot of (most) men have the same biological urge to plant their seed. It's nearly impossible to find someone who definitely does not want kids. The not-sures and the on-the-fences will want them. After they're financially secure. Trust. So I won't mess with those wishy-washy folks either.
So, you may ask, why get married if you don't want kids? I don't know, I guess the companionship sounds nice. And the health insurance (you think I'm kidding). And just sharing your life with someone else. My ex-boyfriend and I talked about marriage a few times (in a general sense), and he really sold me on it. I was against it before we met, but he made it sound like a lot more fun than I'd previously imagined. He was quite the salesman. So I'm a convert and now on the marriage track. So no more dating conservatives and men who want kids and men who are the wrong sign (you think I'm kidding).
I've found a lot of great guys who would be great partners, but they all want kids. I should send them over to a few of my baby-crazy friends who have trouble finding a man who wants to start a family. They're convinced they don't exist, but that's really all I see. I think I have a maternal (i.e. dowdy and boring) quality about me that brings them out of the woodwork. But the last thing I want to be is anyone's mother.
Anyway, I sat down here to share one of the guys who winked at me. He is hilarious. Very crazy yoga new-agey man. This is the picture that went with his profile; I think it might actually be him twirling around in a skirt with his pot belly peeping out. Check him out:
About my life and what I'm looking for
I want to fall in love with the agony of love, not the ecstasy. Fot this is the time the beloved will fall in love with me. if you are ready for the true journey of love here I am awaiting your arrival. There are only four questions of value in life. What is sacred? What is spirit? What is worth living for? And what is worth dying for? The answer to all four questions is the same. Only love
for fun:
I love to go to yoga with my partner to be. It is a great way of connecting to one another.
my job:
I want to fall in love with the agony of love, not the ecstasy. For this is the time the beloved will fall in love with me. if you are ready for the true journey of love here I am awaiting your arrival.
my ethnicity:
Will discuss more when the time allows
my religion:
will discuss more later
favorite hot spots:
Europe, latin america. But I live here so here I am.
favorite things:
I am vegi eater only once year eat other meat products. As u can tell I have almost travelled everywhere except Australia area. Someday. Just came back from Caracas. Very interesting.
